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Saturday, December 2nd, 2006
5:04 am
Here's how it went
French, then a free block where prowten ted & I came to my house to get my guitar and I mixed a rum & soda for later. Sociology, doing a no-brainer activity the entire time. Free block, town with henry and cam to new london and some minor drinking of said rum & soda. Then math quiz, I owned it which I did not expect and then got out early and chilled with the hannahs. Then two free blocks in a row chillin with julius and hannah and hannah and graham. And I finished the rum & soda and was kinda drunk and havin a great time. Then bowl run immediatley after school with jared rose, I can't move when he brings me home and I take a two hour power nap. Then off to pick up alex and go meet ted and mike and we drive around aimlessly for probably an hour.
This is when it got reallll good.
Bobby showed up so me, alex, ted, bobby and tyler cristy and we went to bobby's house and smoked ted up for the first time in almost a year cuz of his probation. Essentially me and ted and tyler got RIPPED and alex got trashed and bobby got both, and we spray painted every surface of bobby's room. It was chaos. And ridiculously funny for some odd reason. Then wendy's.
Wendy's was.... wow. Alex was DONE. So he stayed in the car while we went in cuz he couldn't walk right or speak and we had covered him in spraypaint. We're ordering and the fucking woman is giving us all kinds of shit, "I hate you teenagers, why do you always have to come in right as we're about to close? Take it to go so we don't have to clean up after you. We close at 10, I'm giving you 15 minutes then get out (It's currently 915)" We're irritated and eat in the place and make a huge mess, but we meet up with kids we vaguely/don't know, two groups; form sudbury and from acton. That was fun, they were wicked funny. then alex came in. sat down, goes IM DRUNK, eats half a salt shaker, and boots all over the table. That's when we decided it was best to leave.
Alex went right home, and we went party chasing but didn't actually know where we were going and ended up back at bobby's. where bobby promptly passed out and I watched march of the penguins, then went home.

Then, the best part of my evening, I walk into my room and hear this ringing from my bed, it's my dad calling the brand new razr he got as an early christmas present for me today. FINALLY I HAVE A PHONE THAT WORKS LIKE IT'S SUPPOSED TO!!!!!! YEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHH

awesome day after a few bad ones, gonna go pass out now. gnight

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Thursday, October 19th, 2006
1:33 am
Monogamy )

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Wednesday, September 20th, 2006
11:22 pm
BG
10:51 hjahahahaha
10:51 okay topic of the night
10:51 Reality

demonboy1652
10:51 reality's what you choose to believe


BG
10:51 Can anything be considered True
10:51 Name one true thing

demonboy1652
10:52 me
10:52 from my point of view
10:52 and you, from yours


BG
10:52 But broken down to the smallest particles, the pieces that make up you and I cannot be differentiated from the world around us
10:52 We are one and the same
10:52 The only difference between us is perception

demonboy1652
10:52 thats if you choose to believe what your senses are telling you


BG
10:53 How can we not?

demonboy1652
10:53 and thats if you blend micro and macro entities into one
10:53 well you can choose to accept that the information sent to your brain by your senses is true


BG
10:54 But can we consciously choose to accept them as false?
10:55 Do we have a choice but to define the world according to our senses?

demonboy1652
10:55 you could choose to believe the world is a creation of your imagination, a very egocentric perspective


BG
10:55 Our senses are our only tools, the instruments of our reality. They are flawed and limited.
10:56 Unfortunately
10:56 They are also the basis of our reality
10:56 We can choose to believe what we want
10:56 but at the end of the day our reality, be it what it is, is defined by our senses

demonboy1652
10:56 youve got to give them the benefit of the doubt or youre going to have a very lonely existance


BG
10:57 well we have to assume that they've got something right
10:57 Think of it like this
10:57 Our senses form the basis of our reality
10:57 our reality is perception

demonboy1652
10:58 id say its safe to assume that there is some form of loose reality though, because even if what we perceive as the world is a hallucination there has to be something there perceiving it


BG
10:58 if we do not percieve it, if we cannot sense that it is there, we cannot prove that it continues to exist

demonboy1652
10:58 can we prove that anything exists?


BG
10:58 we can define the existence of objects based on our senses
10:58 we know that something has mass, that its there
10:59 which granted is different and seperate from existing

demonboy1652
10:59 but senses can be misleading and manipulative of our realities, as you and i both know from having done some crazy drugs


BG
10:59 so you have a point
10:59 absolutely
10:59 but they still define our reality because they're all we have to define it with

demonboy1652
10:59 so our reality is based on trust just as much if not more than perception


BG
10:59 you remember the old idiom, if a tree falls in the forest, does it make a sound?

demonboy1652
11:00 what tree?


BG
11:00 exactly
11:00 The tree doesnt exist
11:00 to us at least
11:00 we all lead seperate realities
11:00 or we have to assume as much
11:00 because we can only prove that our own reality exists

demonboy1652
11:01 there was a student at harvard who for his final essay was posed the question "prove the chair youre sitting on exists".. all of the other students wrote pages and pages of theories and laws, but this one student simply wrote "what chair?" and walked out, and got an A


BG
11:01 exactly
11:02 the problem in this mode of thought
11:02 is that it assumes that nothing is independent of our reality
11:02 I argued with Nick Ferbert about this in class
11:02 If our reality is defined by our perception
11:03 and we can only prove what is tangible, and only loosely at that
11:03 than how can we know that anything is independent of our perception
11:03 How do we know that matter exists independent of us

demonboy1652
11:03 we dont, we never will


BG
11:05 exactly
11:05 we dont know
11:05 man exists in a vacuum of fallibility
11:05 incapable of percieving all sides

demonboy1652
11:05 but not for lack of want


BG
11:05 limited by what we can percieve we will never go beyond our own eyes
11:05 well put.

demonboy1652
11:07 which brings up the question, what happens to everyone else's universe when i die?


BG
11:08 You're assuming that everyone else has a universe
11:08 To you, the individual, you only know what you can percieve

demonboy1652
11:08 im assuming that because of my mental limits i believe there is a you


BG
11:08 Exactly
11:09 we trust every day that there are others out there experiencing what we are
11:09 The beauty of it is that we can never prove the existence of another mind once we can no longer perceive it.
11:10 Meaning that man, at its core, is the lonliest creature to ever walk the face of the earth

demonboy1652
11:11 youre assuming there are other creatures and that theres an earth


BG
11:12 I am, because I'm giving man the credit of the inanimate. Even I can't quite come to terms with the fact that things I can't sense may not exist. Which at any particular moment of solitude, could make me the only living thing in existence

demonboy1652
11:15 you bring fear into the equation
11:15 if we assume that nothing we think we perceive is correct, then we have to assume that emotion is in some form correct
11:15 therefore basic mental capacity


BG
11:17 but emotions are simply responses to environmental stimuli
11:17 meaning they too can be chalked up to perception, just a more intimate version
11:18 environmental stimuli or lack thereof

demonboy1652
11:18 so existance is a simple catch-22
11:18 environmental stimuli exist because we feel emotions triggered by them


BG
11:19 Pretty much

demonboy1652
11:19 well now that weve solved the mystery of existance, i think im goin to bed

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Sunday, September 10th, 2006
5:23 pm - Virtual Tour
Not all of these are my own pictures, but here are the inhabitants on my nano reef )

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Sunday, August 27th, 2006
6:31 pm - Deep thinking with Brian Guay
BG
12:31 lets get really drunk in the middle of the day for no reason
demonboy1652
12:32 thats paradoxical
12:32 drinking to get drunk is drinking for a purpose

BG
12:33 but we won't be drinking to get drunk
12:33 kind of like the side effects to prescription medicine
demonboy1652
12:33 ah
12:34 see, i will be be drinking to get drunk
12:34 hey yknow how your muse is TV?
12:34 mine is my reef tank, and last night i smoked that shit amanda gave me (by the way, its daaaaank), and found the meaning of life in it

BG
12:35 which is?
demonboy1652
12:35 finding purpose
12:35 it makes sense in an odd way
12:35 the purpose of living is to find a reason to live

BG
12:36 makes sense
12:36 Where the means are infinitely more important than the end result
demonboy1652
12:37 truth
12:37 everyone comes to a different and unique final summation
12:37 therefore, life is chaos in a certain sense

BG
12:38 who says that a final summation is necessary?
12:38 The problem with that philosophy is its intrinsicly hedonistic approach to life
12:39 To say that people constantly search for purpose, while completely true, forces a massive emphasis on the individual
12:39 meaning that everyone must take it upon themselves to find their own unique purpose, their own unbeaten path to prowl
12:41 Which also means that social mores and folkways that have been refined with the development of culture must be ignored and disregarded so that all paths are open to the individual
12:41 What happens if someones unique path involves child molestation?
12:41 Or murder?
demonboy1652
12:42 thats their path

BG
12:42 Promiscuity, lust, greed, gluttony, envy, every sin imaginable would be open to the world
12:42 exactly
12:42 their own individual path
demonboy1652
12:42 stating the obvious, but if all pathways must be optioned then anything goes

BG
12:43 And while I think I could perfectly function without being led by society, most people can't deal without routine, without guidelines to live their life by
12:43 hence Religion
demonboy1652
12:44 hence a lot of things
12:44 but i think you do need routine
12:44 i think you need your own routine
12:45 given its by your own design, but i think you do have ingrained routines that youd be disoriented without

BG
12:45 I do to, I think routine is important, but it needs to be your own
12:45 exactly, a routine of your own making
demonboy1652
12:45 for instance; your sleep patterns, your drugging, etc

BG
12:45 good example
demonboy1652
12:45 exactly

BG
12:46 the problem is that society, in order to function, forces the individual to behave in accordance with other members of that society
demonboy1652
12:46 conflicting life paths + arrogance
12:47 = conflict, among other things

BG
12:49 the problem lies in the unique aspects of the individula
12:50 society cannot function if all aspects of the individual are allowed
demonboy1652
12:50 people as a whole seek tribal relationships, but no one can fully accept someone who is different
12:51 in the sense that no "tribe" could ever be what any individual wants and needs it to be

BG
12:58 exactly, the human being, a social creature, is forced to both understand himself as an individual, where he will eventually realize his intrinsic uniqueness, but also forced to seek out others, knowing full well than any group situation will be a rought fit, if a fit at all
demonboy1652
1:01 yeah

BG
1:02 on a less intelligent subject
1:02 we need drugs

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Monday, July 24th, 2006
12:19 pm
Things I learned in Quebec:
-both wild boar and carribou are amazing
-it's possible to get lost in an elevator
-canadians as a whole are exponentially thinner than americans, and therefore the ratio of hotties to normal people is much smaller than here
-i can hold my breath for over a minute easy, maybe my lungs aren't as toasty as I thought they were (=
-new speed record in the beemer: 114 comin through the green mountains yesterday
-buddy "the golden retarded" (retriever) might come to live with us, as soon as cheryl is tired of him


Things I re-learned in Quebec:
-my mom is psychotic, although in thoroughly unpredicable ways; she bought me a really nice peace pipe and an ounce of native american ceremonial smoking herbs
-my grandmother can still way outdrink me. try more than a pitcher of sangria more.
-I do miss her, a lot

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Thursday, June 29th, 2006
9:57 am
this was my past few days )

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Monday, August 29th, 2005
11:57 am
Ehem.... friends only bitches

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Sunday, August 28th, 2005
8:24 pm

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